Again

On Monday I have my second round of chemo. The dread has started to creep up into my throat. Even though I know this is helping me I still dread it. The week or so of sick, tired, feeling checked out from my family, I hate it.

As of yet I am unable to agree to put Lucy into childcare more than 2 days. I just can't do it, emotionally I want her near us or with dear friends who are parents to her closest playmates. I am sure at some point I am going to have to face the music and let her go more often. Marnie has been great about this, she has disagreed with me on the childcare thing, but is letting me win so far.

Speaking of Marnie. She is a rock. She is working like crazy, doing the commute from hell 5 days a week, taking care of me and Lucy all while holding me up when I fall apart, now not as often as before. I love her, I am not really sure what I did to deserve her.

Think of us Monday. Think shrink tumor, shrink!