Chew On This

"Seek out that particular mental attribute which makes you feel most deeply and vitally alive, along with which comes the inner voice which says, ‘This is the real me,’ and when you have found that attitude, follow it". - William James

A Child's Mind

Last night just before bed Spawn said to Spouse, "My energy went up to the moon to dance and will be back inside me in the morning".

Finally

The fog has really lifted. I feel like after, I don't know, 4 years the fog in my head and my body is virtually gone. Thanks to the support of Marnie, some amazing friends and some really good psych meds I am feeling like myself again. Actually this might be the first time in my life I really know what myself feels like (does that make sense?). I have been reluctant to say this out loud as I didn't want to jinx anything, but since I have written a lot about my struggles here I thought it only fitting to say when things are good. And they are just that, good, dare I say maybe even great!

None Found

Today for the second time in my life I heard a doctor say to me "no cancer cells were found". Back in October I had some routine (for me) tests done. Last week I had a biopsy on a lymph node in my neck (not pleasant at all) and today I found out the very very good news.

I will be calling the oral surgeon tomorrow to set up the appointment to have that wisdom tooth taken out that is probably causing all this inflammation. No amount of dental phobia is worth what I have been through in the last week or so waiting to find out if I had cancer again. No amount at all.